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We all struggle with things, some of us struggle with mountains, others with pea-size rocks.

A few months ago I was faced with a decision, to continue working at my own dreams of running a business or take on a new challenge of going to work for someone else. I prayed about it and was left with the choice because of this little thing called free will. The funny thing about free will is, that God lets you choose.

The funny thing about free will is, God lets you choose.

Either of the choices I made would be the right ones, it was just a matter of which one I could handle best. While I still feel I made the right choice by going to work for someone else, I still get frustrated with myself because I’m struggling to keep up with everything else. Some days I feel like I have all the balls in the air and other times I see them scattered about my feet. It’s a frustrating feeling to see them all scattered.

Before I went to work for someone else my viewership on Pinterest had reached almost a million views a month. Views are important because I post affiliate links there. You don’t get paid if you don’t get buyers.

Today, 6 full months of working for someone else, my views on Pinterest have fallen to 148 thousand a month. Needless to say, I am frustrated with the lack of time to devote to my own business. I work 10 hours a day, work for myself for as long as I can keep my eyes open, and still, my views continue to decline.

My day job is going well, I’m advancing and gaining ground there. I went from a general laborer (extremely physical work) to an office job quickly because I had skills in the social media world. They were in need of a social media expert. While I don’t consider myself an expert, I have enough skills and spoke up, so I was offered the opportunity of working in the office.

I want to say I hate my job because it takes me away from my personal dreams of running my own business, but I can’t.  I absolutely love my day job. I love what I do, I love the people I work with, and I am having so much fun!

So what am I struggling with? My business and creativity. I’m at a pinnacle point, do I let it go, or dig down and try to give more effort to it?  At the same time that my business is failing, I am also struggling with this deep urge to be more creative. My personal business provided me with more creativity than I do in my day job. I had more time to devote to personal creativity like making patterns, crafting, etc. So I struggle with not getting enough time to create the art that’s in my head.

Giving this struggle more thought I decided I wasn’t going to let go of my business, instead, I am going to find something I can eliminate, dig down deep, and give more effort to my dreams. My goals are very important to me for my retirement.

Digging down deep and eliminating sounds easier than it is, so I made a detailed list of how I plan to attack this issue. I sat down to see where my time-wasters were.

• Game of Thrones, you’ve got to go! I am eliminating my HBO subscription.
• Texting people from work. Love you, but you are getting slotted into a half-hour window of time.
• House cleaning, while I can’t yet hire maid service, I can order an automatic vacuum for the continuous sand that gets tracked into the house every day.
• Parties with friends, Love you too, but you are also getting limited to only 2 days a week, both days of which can’t be the entire weekend.

What are your dreams? What are you struggling with? How can I help you get from point A to point B?